Just thinking...

Today's one of those days where you just sit and think "How did I get here, to this exact point in my life? Why am I here? What did I do to bring me to this point?" I'm just feeling a little down today... It's so easy to just wish that things would go back to the way they were, when we were young and happy.... to wonder why things are the way they are now....

I know I have to move on from this point, I guess I'm just feeling a little sorry for myself today. I miss him and it hurts today.... it really does.

Which in turn, just frustrates me because I had a great night last night. I went out with Mary to a concert, had a great time, enjoyed myself, had a couple drinks.... It was tons of fun. And now this....

I'm a freakin emotional roller coaster. I do so good for days, even weeks, then it's like I hit a brick wall and I'm planted right back on my ass, starting this cycle all over again. I want to be done with this crap already.