Thursday, June 29, 2006

Lady Update

Okay... So I figured out who the tooth belonged to.... It was Lady's only front tooth on the top row. She has terribly bad teeth, and it obviously was already falling out, but got pulled out during the fight. My poor baby!!

I took her to the vet this morning because she was really babying her foot last night.... To the point that she wasn't stepping on it at all because it hurt so bad. The doctor says that it's swollen and irritated. I'll be soaking it in epsom salts for half an hour daily for the next week. Explain to me how to keep my dog still long enough to soak her foot in water for half an hour?! Fortunately, she's pretty well behaved and I'm sure it'll be fine. She's also on an antibiotic to kill any infection that may have set in.

I asked him about the situation with Molly and he says that it's definitely an attitude thing - her trying to show her dominance over Lady, which I completely agree. But what do I do to stop them from fighting? He says just to keep an eye on them and be very cautious of the situation. I asked about doggy Prozac and he suggested that it's a last resort and would need to have her in to evaluate her before taking that measure. He made it seem like the situation is really not that big of a deal, when to me, it is.... I'm still seriously thinking that it's gonna come down to me having to have her put down.

I'm afraid of what's gonna happen the next time the girls get into it. I'm even more afraid that one day I'm going to come home from work and find one of them (or both) seriously injured from fighting during the day while I'm at work (I don't know that they've fought while I'm not there, but who's to say they wont?). And I'm afraid of how badly I'm going to get hurt the next time I try and break up their fights.... Not only are their injuries getting worse with each altercation - so are mine! My left hand is still slightly swollen, but definitely sensitive to the touch, and my leg has a huge knot on it and is extremely sensitive where I was bitten. Yes, I'm keeping it extremely clean (mom!) and I'm taking measures to take care of my wounds... I know dog bites are nasty and dirty, so I'm staying on top of it! :D

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Battle Wounds

Well, the girls got into a fight again last night (the dogs, Molly and Lady). This is the second time in a week and a half. And it gets worse every time. And I've been hurt the last two times..... Poor Johnny got chewed on a bit too.

Lady was laying on her bed in the bedroom and Johnny was sitting on the floor with her. I leaned down to rub Lady's head and Molly got jealous and grabbed ahold of Lady's back paw and it escalated from there.... We couldn't get them seperated - Molly really sunk her teeth into Lady's paw, so much so that I picked Molly up and the was still attached to Lady's foot....

At one point, trying to pry Molly's mouth open (I know, bad idea) my finger got caught in the back of her mouth and she tore it open pretty bad. And Lady, in all the confusion thought she had ahold of Molly and instead clamped onto the back of my left hand and bruised my vein (didn't puncture) and then chomped down on my leg, gashing it open about an inch or so wide.... Its still bleeding this morning. Oh, and we found a tooth on the floor and can't figure out which of the girls it belongs to. Poor Rusty was so scared that he just hid under the bed.

We eventually got them seperated and Johnny put Molly outside for the night. Big shock factor to her because they're all indoor dogs and have never slept outside before. She spent most of the night barking and being extremely upset. She'd come to the bedroom window and I could hear her sniffing against the glass, trying to get in.... I felt bad, but I know it was the right thing to do.

Lady's pretty beat up.... She has 3 puncture wounds in her back right pad and is limping pretty seriously this morning. I feel so bad. I didn't lock her in the kitchen with the others because I just want her to be comfortable, so I left her laying on her bed when I went to work this morning.

I don't know what to do.... It's been happening more and more frequently lately and getting worse each time. Molly really is a sweet girl, but she just is mean to Lady or anyone else when it comes down to the attention... And it's not like she's deprived of attention, trust me!! Part of me feels that it's the right thing to let her go, but I don't know if it would be fair to place her with someone else and risk someone/something else being hurt. Which leaves me with the option of putting her down.... which just completely brings me to tears thinking about it, but I know that's probably the best option. I mean, what happens if I have babies.... Is she gonna get jealous of them and attack? I cannot risk that!!! And I can't put her in that situation with someone else. I just don't know what to do.....

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Thank you Neeners!!!!

She created and posted my beautiful new banner!!! I absolutely love it! I love that it's black and pink (my current favorite color combo) and features my most favorite flower, the stargazer lily.... I couldn't have asked for anything more beautiful and perfect! :D


Bite Me!

i'm hormonal today.... just a forewarning (i appologize now for the language lindi!!).... here it goes:

bite me to my dumb ass boss that can't pay me or the rest of his employees consistantly, cant tell me when to expect my next freakin paycheck (which he's behind by 3 of them... thats a shit load of money fucker!).....

he can't tell me when i should expect benefits to be available, but he's already got himself and his perfect little family enrolled....

he gets all pissy when i take a 2 minute personal call to handle my divorce shit and then decides to order me around and tell me to do certain things, and stick his nose where it doesnt belong.... if i want your opinion, i'll ask....

who expects me to change out all of the trash liners and refill the paper towels in all the bathrooms (that's what you have a cleaning lady for, you ass.... oh that's right, you don't pay her anymore, so she stopped coming!)....

he got all pissy when i explained to him yesterday that i needed to take time off to file my divorce paperwork - sorry, but i'm not gonna pay out the ass for someone else to do it just because it's convenient for you - you wanna pay for it, then more power to you, but i'm broke fucker and it's your fault!

he got an attitude with me today because he saw me reading the news headlines... "we need to find you something constructive to do".... pay my ass and then i'll be constructive... i'm fuckin tired of working for free....

i could keep going, but it just makes me sound like more of a bitch, so i think it's best that i stop now. whew, that felt kinda good. if only i had the balls to actually say it to his face....

Saturday, June 24, 2006

Something Different

Okay... here are some of the pictures from my trip last weekend to Silver Strands with my sister, dad and his wife. I played with them a bit in PS... And they're way blown out, but I kinda like them.... My sister is rubbing off on me. She likes to blow hers out to the extreme.... think these to the extreme....

Anyways, just had some fun playing around a bit.... :p

Lori tagged me...

But I can't come up with 5.... How terrible is that?!

I don't really swoon over many celebrities... Brad Pitt used to be on the list, but he's still in the dog house for leaving Jen... :p

So..... Here's my bad-boy hottie... And he's enough for me! :D

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

How would you feel?

Just curious...

Say that you are seperated from your spouse. And you are not extremely close to your sister who is 8 years younger than you, but you guys have always gotten along and enjoyed eachother's company....

Say that your ex-spouse is now talking to your younger sister (strictly as friends - she's 16!). They talk regularly, via IM and phone.... No idea what they talk about because your sister refuses to tell anyone, including your mother....

Say your mom calls you last night and informs you of all of this, that it's been going on for a couple of weeks. And now your sister has informed your mom that she wants to go hang out with your ex, and that she doesn't feel comfortable talking to you due to the circumnstances....

How would you feel? Wouldn't you feel like the SOB has no right to sit and continue a relationship with your sister (when they were never really that close to begin with!), and that he has no right to feed her a bunch of crap and turn her against you? Wouldn't you want to know what's being said? Wouldn't you be devastated?


Monday, June 19, 2006

More Pictures

These are from Saturday... Chey and I went back out and got some daytime shots of downtown Temecula area.... I'm posting the originals and then the ones that I played with in PS. I've also got pics to upload from our trip out to Silver Strands, but not sure if I'll have time to do that tonight... But for now -

An old wagon ...

A statue outside of one of the wine shops (first is the original, second I just sharpened the coloring a bit)

An old building that I found down an alley way....

And finally some roses....

Stolen from Mo!

Finish these sentences...

I WANT: to be a mommy.
I HAVE: some of the most amazing friends!
I WISH: that I didn't have to work.
I HATE: that Lindi is moving so far away from me.
I MISS: Simba.
I HEAR: the landscapers outside of the office.
I WONDER: where I'll be in 5 years.
I REGRET: nothing.
I AM NOT: good at saving money.
I DANCE: while no one is looking.
I SING: when no one's around.
I CRY: too easily.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: the most social person.
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: cards and scrap pages - although it's been months.
I WRITE: lots of lists, things that are on my mind.... I have random notebooks everywhere.
I CONFUSE: myself way too often.... some things just go over my head (I swear I'm not blonde!)
I NEED: to learn to go to bed at a descent hour.
I SHOULD: really start saving money for all the trips I'm taking in this next year.
I START: getting super sleepy around 2:30 in the afternoon, no matter how much sleep I get.
I FINISH: at least 1 can of Monster a day, usually in the afternoon.

Now you go...

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Just some quick pictures

Went out to downtown Temecula last night to get some night shots with my younger sister... She's really into photography (I just play - no idea what I'm doing) and that's what she wanted to do... I think I got a couple good ones.

Don't ask me about specs because I have no clue.... I'll upload as many as Blogger will allow - the originals and then the ones that I played with in PS....

We're heading back out there later today to get some day shots and compare the two.... Happy Saturday!

On the one above, as well as a few others that appear to be "grainy", I used the Fresco filter in PS to make those adjustments....

And my favorite picture of the night.... a shot of some raggedy mailboxes... The first is the original, straight off the camera. Second, I played with the coloring a bit, and the third has the Fresco filter on it....

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Situation with D

Just a little update, for those that are wondering...

He came by yesterday afternoon and picked up the last of his stuff out of the garage. I had left the back door to the garage door unlocked (or so I thought) so that he could get into the garage without having access to the house. I guess the door handle was still locked, so I had to leave work to go let him in.

I got there and there was a different truck parked in my driveway - his girlfriend's truck, and he brought her with him..... for what reason, God only knows, but hey.... Good for him if he's finally moving on. Maybe that will mean he'll be less of a jerk to me (yea right!). He didn't say but maybe 10 words to me the entire time he was there, and when he was done, they just backed out of the driveway and took off.... He didn't even take 2 seconds to say hi to the babies.... and his girlfriend had the nerve to tell them to shuttup because they were whining at the screen door because they could see him out in the driveway.... Royally pissed me off!

So he emptied out all of his tools from the work bench, took all the parts he had gathered up for his Busa, his little junk.... everything. He took it all.... Down to the last hammer, screwdriver and box of nails.... I have nothing. I'm just glad that I pulled the rubber mallot (for my scrapbooking) and staple gun into the house.... He did leave the big toolbox, which Johnny is excited to use and fill with his tools..... But, I'll be making a trip to Home Depot to stock up on some of the standard necessities....

And Johnny's a happy boy because the garage is all cleared out and ready for him to make it his own. He's already moved his computer out onto the work bench. And we went and picked his motorcycle up last night, so she's sitting in the middle of the garage..... He's so excited. :o) We'll probably be making a trip out to his storage to move all his stuff in by the end of the month.... He'll probably have to rent a truck, but it'll be nice to actually have him move his things in. And then we'll be having a yard sale sometime in the next couple months to purge some of the stuff we don't need.... I figure that with the house being mine now, I can decorate and do whatever I want with it, so ultimately, I'll be changing it up a bit. Plus, there's some stuff up in the rafters that I need to go through and get rid of......

Looking forward to moving on and starting new.... And love that Johnny's a part of that! :o)

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Song of the Moment

My new song for the last couple days has been by a newer band... Saving Jane. Just makes me feel good to sing along at the top of my lungs driving down the freeway.... Kinda captures some of the crap that's going on in life right now.... Kinda funny how a song can do that, isn't it?

Saving Jane - Who's Cryin' Now?

It’s too late to say you’re sorry
You’ve been gone from here too long
I hope you found what you were missing
Cause I don’t miss you here at all

And it’s too bad that I’m not crying for you baby,
Don’t be sad, cause I’ve been fine without you lately

I’m saving my breath
I’m saving my tears
I’m saving my life for something
Better than these years
I’ve lost too much time
Crying over you

Don’t look so surprised that I’ve
Got better things to do
Who’s cryin now?

I’m saving my breath
I’m saving my tears
I’m saving my life for something
Better than these years
I’ve lost too much time
Crying over you

There’s so many nights that I wasted
I was waiting for your call
Did you think I’d wait forever?
I guess you don’t know me at all

And I told you if you left you would regret it
Thinking I would take you back, but you don’t get it

I’m saving my breath
I’m saving my tears
I’m saving my life for something
Better than these years
I’ve lost too much time
Crying over you

There’s something you should know
I finally let you go
It had to end somehow
Tell me who’s cryin now

Monday, June 12, 2006

Just some random update stuffs....

Had a good weekend, of course, not long enough...

BBQ'd on Sunday. Had my family up. They got to meet Johnny.... Everyone got along great, and that makes things just that much better.... Johnny cooked some awesome steak and shrimp, they boys (and mom) played a round of darts.... it was perfect! Mom ranked him an 8/10... Johnny asked what would get him a 10/10 and she of course responded that she wanted grandbabies! In time mom... :p

Tried to crash early last night - think I drank a little too much, but also, I've been so tired lately, so I think it just hit me that much harder than normal. Laid in bed and listened to music with my honey and dozed off.... so nice to just fall asleep in his arms. Makes me feel so comfortable, safe and secure. I just love him!!

We're both looking into getting our divorces going. It was suggested to me by a co-worker today about maybe filing for a legal seperation as well - to cover my ass and stop D from being able to take any more than he deserves (who knows if it'll get to that point - I pray it doesn't get nasty, but I'd rather be safe than sorry). I've got the website to go to to fill all of my stuff out, it's just a matter of setting aside the time and doing it.... I need to, sooner than later....

Hoping that all works out in the end with the divorce - I'd like to keep my house. Johnny's gonna help me with the landscaping in the back yard... So maybe by the end of the year, if all goes good, I'll actually have grass laid, my concrete poured, and maybe even a cute little veggie garden.... Which will be just perfect since we do so much cooking together.

He's off today, and here I am at work.... He's in bed sleeping, and I'm just typing away... I'm so jealous! He's got his list of honey-do's... He wants to mow the yard (one of the things he said he will be doing, no matter what I say.... which I guess is fine because I never get around to it....), wash his car, and he wants to have the house picked up and dinner ready for me when I get home..... Tell me he's not the sweetest guy ever?!?!

And of course, a few pics from the BBQ yesterday... Mom grabbed my camera and started snapping away. Which was totally nice being that we only have 1 other pic of us together... My mom's the new paparazzi! Love it!! :D

Okay.... blogger's not allowing me to upload the pics, so I'll have to try again later... Sorry guys! But, if you're on SJ, they're posted there, as well as on my profile at MySpace.... :D

Friday, June 09, 2006


Beth posted a challenge today to blog about nicknames that you may have had growing up, or still currently... And whether you like them or hate them and why...

As a baby, my mom nicknamed me "Boots", and on a rare occasion, she'll still call me this.... As a toddler, I would walk around the house carrying my bottle of milk or juice and when I was done with it, I'd hide it in my stepdad's cowboy boots.... It would sit there until he went to go put his boots on... hence the name Boots. I don't mind being called this. Of course, only my mom can get away with it.

I've always hated the name "Jessie"... When I meet someone new, and they start calling me Jessie, I'm very quick to explain that I prefer not to be called that - Jes or Jessica will work just fine. But then, there's Grandma... She's always called me Jessie, all of my life. She's the only one I allow to call me this... The only one that can say that name and it doesn't send shivers up my spine. Not sure why I dislike it so much, but I do.

And "Jes", the name I go by most.... Up until 11th grade of high school, I always spelled it "Jess"... Then I met David and for some reason, he only spelled it with 1 's', and I decided I liked the look of that much better.... It's different, and I like it. Not everyone realizes that I spell it that way, and most of my friends and family still spell it as "Jess", which doesn't bother me... It's just my personal preference to spell it that way....

Thursday, June 08, 2006

A long overdue update!!

It's been a while since I've updated.... been a busy little bee. So here goes my novel, hope you have a minute....

Last weekend was lots of fun. Saturday was the Temecula Balloon and Wine Festival - went with Johnny, Tani and John. Had a wonderful time, watched the balloon glow, had some good wine and chocolate covered fruit, laughed a lot, lost the car in the parking lot and managed to bust myself up laughing at who knows what.... so funny that I decided to stop and sit in the dirt parking lot for a minute to catch my breath (which Johnny just got a kick out of - thanks hun :p)

Sunday was nice too.... slept in with my baby, lazied around the house and then in the evening went to the Alkaline Trio concert with some friends. Had a great time. Loved the music. Loved spending time with my honey. Love getting to know Ian and JoAnna a little better.... Such sweet people.

Monday I took the day off (we were out super late the night before - but more importantly, I wanted to meet Johnny's mom!) So we drove up to Whittier so Johnny could get some of his things from his mom's house... I got to meet his mom and step-dad - both are super sweet. I can see where he gets his attitude from (totally a good thing!) and can't wait to get to know his mom more....

Been battling a sore throat the last couple days, but seem to be doing better now.... Need to get that cleared up before the weekend though - I'm going to LA on Saturday to do pictures for Mary and her mom, and with Blanca being so weak, I don't want to be sick around her. That's the last thing she needs... Don't worry Mares, I'll be better!!!

Things in my life couldn't be better.... I've met a wonderful man, who treats me like a little princess, who loves me for who I am, doesn't try to change me, has the most sincere heart, and we just fit so well together.... We love a lot of the same things, we spend a lot of time in the kitchen cooking together (which I just love!!), he loves to cuddle, he loves music, he can do just about anything he puts his mind to..... and last night he informed me that he's writting me a song. I'm excited to hear it babe! :D

Its funny lately.... I just walk around with the biggest, goofiest smile on my face.... all because of Johnny.... he makes me so truly happy. My friends see it, my co-workers see it. And they're all saying the same thing - they've never seen me happier. My best friends are even saying it - and I'm so blessed to have such wonderful, caring people in my life.... I love you all tons, thank you for your friendship, your love, and support over the last couple months.... Things are finally looking up and I couldn't be happier!!

Saturday, June 03, 2006

I'm taking a break

And considering taking a little mini nap.... It's 10am on Saturday and I've been up since 7:30 cleaning.... Here's what I've got done so far:
  • Steam cleaned the carpet in my bedroom and bathroom
  • Cleaned out my dresser drawers and bagged up some clothes for good will
  • Washed a load of bed linens and a load of towels
  • Changed out and cleaned the cat box
  • Cleaned out the kitchen cupboard and fridge (there was a lot of old stuff in there!!)
  • Gave Bubba a bath
  • Mopped the bathroom and laundry room floors
  • Vacuumed my scrap room
I've still got a lot more to do, but I think I need to re-charge a bit before I jump back in. Here's what's left on my to-do list:
  • Take a shower and get dressed (yes, I'm still in my pj's)
  • 2 more loads of laundry
  • Put the clean sheets back on the bed
  • Clean the bathroom
  • Vacuum the living room
  • Sweep and mop the kitchen floor and wipe down the counters
  • Put the dishes away
  • Go to the grocery store
  • Dust the bedroom (hate having cherry wood - gets dusty so fast!!)
And all of this to be done before 4 because Tani and her hubby are driving out from LA to attend the Balloon & Wine Festival with Johnny and I.... She's super excited to meet him :D So yea, lots to do..... I'm really considering that power nap. I think I can fit it in if I can just get off of here!! :p

Friday, June 02, 2006

7 Deadly Sins

Neen posted a challenge the other day and I'm just getting around to it.....

PRIDE – Which of your attributes or talents are you most proud of?
honestly, none..... i don't feel that i'm that talented. and when i do, i usually find someone that can do it much better, so it just makes me wonder why i even try....

ENVY – What brings out the green-eyed monster of jealousy in you?
women that can be a stay at home mom and wife.... that's my ultimate dream - to find someone to love me and take care of me, be the sole provider for our family....

SLOTH – What’s your idea of relaxation?
an awesome day at a spa.... full massage, facial, manicure, pedicure..... the royal treatment

LUST – Who do you lust after?
love and happiness....

GREED – What was your last budget blow out on?
a new canon digi elph - i need a small camera to carry around when i don't want to haul my rebel around

ANGER – What gets your blood boiling?
ignorance, stupidity, not taking responsibility for your own actions and making it my fault... gee, can we guess who i'm talking about here?! **rolling eyes**

GLUTTONY – What’s your favourite food?
anything thats completely and utterly bad for me and loaded with carbs and butter!!!!